I have been thinking about ‘how to have a merry day’ lately...
Last Sunday I was visited by an uninvited guest. His name is Depression. He is not a stranger. I remember one night when I was very young my dad found me crying in bed with no reason. I guess that might have been the first time I was introduced to Mr. Depression (it might not be a good idea to address him as ‘Mr’?). I did not know it was called ‘depression’ at the time. I just felt I was different, too sensitive, too touchy and it was very hard growing up being so sensitive. Now I am still a sensitive person but I am old enough and have learned enough to know how to deal with emotions and not be as touchy as I used to be. Mr. Depression never forgets me though, he comes visit me from time to time. Sometimes, I am strong enough to keep the door closed but sometimes I am too weak and let him in. Last Sunday I let him stay for a whole day before I finally got strong enough to pick my brush and paint. I showed him my happiness and he was immediately gone.
So, as I said in Flow magazine blog post ( http://www.flowmagazine.nl/people-we-want-to-meet/patine-sripaisal-24.html.) Drawing everyday is my tool for finding inner peace. I hadn’t realized that. Whenever I got depressed, I read, but it’s only the way of escaping. The bad feelings were still there. Painting is different. It’s like I find something solid in my brush strokes, something happy in rainbow colors. I am so glad to finally discover it :)
I am still thinking about ‘how to have a merry day’. Not finding a way to be forever happy. It is impossible. I am finding ways to be happy and merry on each day and I think ‘draw everyday’ is one of those ways. I am still searching for more, maybe you can tell me your way if you have one :)
Thank you for reading. I hope my merry drawings can compensate for this a bit serious post :)
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